Life With Lexis K.

Hey family. Today I'm doing something that I told myself I would try not to do anymore, and that's write when I'm sad.  But the weekends are hard for me. There is no regular routine at work, no peer or adult contact from coworkers, just me, my kids, and my thoughts, which isn't always a good mix. I know I'm not perfect, but that doesn't stop me from beating myself down for not being so. What can I say? Sorry, I'm a Virgo (RIP to my podcast that never came to fruition). But really I felt this was the perfect time for me to come to the blog and create.  So let's get into it.  I'm sad. And I have been for a while. Now let me preface with I'm thankful for so much. I try to thank God for my life every day because I realize how truly blessed I am. But this gratitude does not replace the sadness that sometimes surrounds me and encapsulates me. Rather than drown out this emotion with substances or with sex I'm choosing to face it head-on. Right here,...

Hello again family.  So today will be a little different as I'll be sharing with y'all something that I do when I'm feeling really bad. I call it writing to relax and basically I just write whatever comes to mind. Be forewarned, I usually write at my lowest points, so it can be emotionally heavy sometimes. This is something I wrote today as I was falling asleep at my desk on the back side of a piece of paper. Remember that your writing can be a great tool for healing if you utilize it. Try to write something today. Doesn't have to be much, or be fancy, just get the words out your head on paper and see how it makes you feel. What do you have to lose?  Today I'm tired. I'm tired of this job. I'm tired of working. I'm tired of living. I'm tired of life. I wish I were happy, secure, stable, all of the above. I have nothing to look forward to. I guess I'm sad right now. I want to walk out and never come back. I wanna run as fast as I can ...