Welcome back, family!
I'm so glad to be back writing for y'all. Forgive me in advance, because I admit, I feel a bit all over the place and writing always helps me ground myself.
So, this morning, I was following my regular routine. Wake and garden (iykyk), scroll on social media, pack lunches, and start my day hopefully in a positive direction.
I don't know if I told y'all, but I've been tapping into my spiritual gifts more, one of which is clairaudience. Let's hold onto that for a bit. Back to my morning routine, which needs major revision, but I digress. As I'm scrolling, I keep seeing Amos 9:13. I mean KEEP seeing it, from Twitter to TikTok. I saw about 3 videos, made on different dates, with the same message: "It's going to happen faster than you thought." I won't need months or even weeks. The change in my life I'm seeking is happening now. It's been happening for months - probably years. 
Now, I don't claim to be holier than thou by any means. I mean, I haven't been to church since January 2020. Although I was baptized and raised in the church and I mean vacation Bible school, choir solos, and praise team dancer type, my relationship with the church and religion overall has changed. This is something I've noticed among a lot of my peers. But my FAITH, by understanding and dependence upon a higher being than myself, is stronger than ever before and bigger than any religion or denomination. I didn't need a church home to find God, I saw him on my porch one morning. That day changed my perspective on life and love and has created this version of me that is writing to you now. So, when a word comes in my spirit, whether in song form or scripture form, I share it with y'all because sharing and creating in this way is a part of my gift.
If you've been following the blog for a while, my voice has changed, but the message has not. We got to get the hell outta dodge, but now I know with love. That day on the porch, with the sun shining through the trees, and the wind kissing my cheek taught me that love is the answer. Not whatever they're out here selling and propagandizing to us. Love is the highest frequency, like how Christians love to say, "God is love." God is all, and love encompasses all.
Now back to the message and my gift of clairaudience. I remember back in 2021, talking to a psychiatrist about how I can hear music in my head when there's none playing. She charted "audio hallucinations" and prescribed me a mood stabilizer. So today, as I'm walking into work, after crying my entire 45-minute commute watching these TikToks, I hear in my head, "The writing is on the wall." CLEAR - Plain as day. I've heard the phrase before, but never used it, so I had to look it up. This brings us back to the Bible, in the story of David, where King Belshazzar, the last king of Babylon, is told that he will eventually be overthrown. In this way, the phrase serves as an omen, a message to prepare for what is to come as King Belshazzar would end up being the last king of soon-to-be conquered Babylon which fulfills the prophecy.
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| My IG story from 1/13/24 |
Hearing "The writing is on the wall" as soon as I walked into work had to be a sign, right? What was the writing saying to me about this place? I could make the best use of my time here, or I could leave now and move forward. I know these past few blog posts have had the same theme: I have to quit this job. But through these past few weeks, in reflection and stillness, I've realized it's bigger than just this job. That's why it didn't get fixed when I left education. I got to run my own program. That's the only way I'll wake back up to life.
I can't be afraid of failing, because failure is not final. Besides, if I never try, I fail by default. And money - it's an energy. Just like light or sound. There has always been currency, even before there was a sociopolitical ideology called capitalism. I can feel the change, evident by the butterfly I see flying past me almost every day.
Can I show y'all how to live a free life? I'm just trying to learn for myself.
With love always,
Cousin Lex
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