Happy New Year family!
I'm back another year on the blog, praying that 2024 brings abundance, prosperity, and peace.
I wanted to share a real-life testimony, both for y'all and as a reminder to myself when I decide to re-read this post on my next trip down memory lane.
Recently, I've been applying to new jobs fervently. My contempt for teaching has grown to the point I'm contemplating putting my two weeks in with no backup plan. I've done maybe 20 applications in the last few months. Two first-round interviews and no callbacks. Today I got another all-too-familiar rejection email from a perspective opportunity that would be a perfect fit for me. Although I was nervous in my Zoom interview, I still hoped my responses, energy, and resume would grant me the opportunity to make it to the next round.
But after reading the rejection, doubt began to set in, and quickly too. "What if I'm stuck teaching? How will I be able to get out of this field? Who is going to give me a chance to prove I'm more than just a teacher?" All these thoughts and more began to play in my head. I felt trapped. But even worse, I felt optionless. Being an MG, I know to go for the options, but what do you do when the seemingly perfect option has been slammed in your face?
I have experienced this before, "losing" my best option. In other instances, it was romantic in nature. The best catch on paper ghosted me, the most malleable partner finally decided to get a backbone, and my supposed "soulmate" flat out told me they had nothing to offer me. But not so often has it happened in my career aspects, where I lost the best option I had on the table. Teaching is not, nor will ever be, the best option for my long-term goals or my family dynamics, but it's the only one I have right now.
Or is it?
When coaching others in their Human Design experiment, I remind Generators and Manifesting Generators (Projectors too) that there is always another option: the option of the unknown.This is the one less chosen because it requires faith. It requires you to believe in yourself and your higher power beyond what you can physically see or imagine without any concrete evidence. It may also require, at times, some level of delusion, because you have to believe in something that does not exist to you, yet.
And this is the option I am choosing. A thousand no's, but it will only take one yes to change my life. I've seen this happen too many times to lose my faith in the unknown option. It has become my ace up my sleeve, no matter what the current circumstances present, I know I can choose to do something else.
This rejection is prompting some deep and overdue reflection. Where are my areas of improvement as it relates to my desirability as a candidate? What can I do to continue investing in myself? What connections can I make to help strengthen my network to obtain better employment? What skills, habits, and routines do I need to develop to become the ideal employee? How can I better prepare for other interviews in the future?
A rejection is just God's promise of something better. He does not tell us no, just not yet or not this.
I'm using this blog post as a mile marker, a checkpoint of sorts to remind myself that the possibilities are limitless and I can't constrain myself to my current reality. That would be settling for less than I deserve or even desire.
Observe the glow-up family, or better yet, hold me accountable to becoming the me I've been writing about for years!
Peace -
Cousin Lex
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